''I was twenty-six years old and an associate beauty editor at Lucky, one of the top fashion magazines in America. That’s all that most people knew about me. But beneath the surface, I was full of secrets: I was a drug addict, for one. A pillheadI was also an alcoholic-in-training who guzzled warm Veuve Clicquot after work alone in my boss’s office with the door closed; a conniving and manipulative uptown doctor-shopper; a salami-and-provolone-puking bulimic who spent a hundred dollars a day on binge foods when things got bad (and they got bad often); a weepy, wobbly, wildly hallucination-prone insomniac; a tweaky self-mutilator; a slutty and self-loathing downtown party girl; and – perhaps most of all – a lonely weirdo.

But, you know, I had access to some really fantastic self-tanner.''

By the age of 15, Cat Marnell longed to work in the glamorous world of women''s magazines - but was also addicted to the ADHD meds prescribed by her father. Within 10 years she was living it up in New York as a beauty editor at Condé Nast, with a talent for ''doctor-shopping'' that secured her a never-ending supply of prescribed amphetaminesHer life had become a twisted merry-go-round of parties and pills at night, while she struggled to hold down her high-profile job during the day.

Witty, magnetic and penetrating - prompting comparisons to Bret Easton Ellis and Charles Bukowski - Cat Marnell reveals essential truths about her generation, brilliantly uncovering the many aspects of being an addict with pin-sharp humour and beguiling style.


''New York''s enfant terrible...Her talent has resided in her uncanny ability to write about addiction from the untidy, unsafe, unhappy epicentre of the disease, rather than from some writerly remove.'' Telegraph

''I LOVE this book'' Catriona Innes, Cosmopolitan Magazine UK

''An unputdownable, brilliantly written rollercoaster'' Shappi Khorsandi

''Brilliantly written and harrowing and funny and honest'' Louise France, The Times Magazine

''Easily one of the most anticipated memoirs of the year...[Marnell''s] got an inimitable style (and oh my god, so many have tried) and a level of talent so high, it''s impossible not to be rooting for her.'' NYLON

Format Häftad Omfång 384 sidor Språk Engelska Förlag Ebury Publishing Utgivningsdatum 2018-02-08 ISBN 9780091957360