Set in the suburbs of Los Angeles and New York City, I Love You So Much It''s Killing Us Both is an immersive journey into the life and mind of Khaki Oliver, who''s perennially trying to disappear into something: a codependent friendship, an ill-advised boyfriend, the punk scene, or simply, the ether.

These days it''s a meaningless job and a comfortingly empty apartment. Then, after a decade of estrangement, she receives a letter from her former best friend. Fiona''s throwing a party for her newly adopted daughter and wants Khaki to join the celebration. Khaki is equal parts terrified and tempted to reconnect.

Their platonic love was confusing, all-consuming, and encouraged their worst impulses. While stalling her RSVP, Khaki starts crafting the perfect mixtape - revisiting memories of formative shows, failed romances, and the ups and downs of desire and denial - while weighing the risks and rewards of saying yes to Fiona again.

One song at a time, from 1980s hardcore to 2010s emo, the shared and separate contours of each woman''s mind come into focus. Will listening to the same old songs on repeat doom Khaki to a lonely life of arrested development? Or will hindsight help her regain her sense of self and pave a healthy path for the future, with or without Fiona?


Format Inbunden Omfång 336 sidor Språk Engelska Förlag Soft Skull Press Utgivningsdatum 2024-02-13 ISBN 9781593767600